I was put into an arranged marriage at a very young age. Not one of those arranged marriages where I’m forced to marry who my father chose.
But we were coupled when we were still teens, and when the time came for rumspringer, I’d already determined that I was dedicated to my community, and that I’d go ahead with the marriage to my childhood best friend – the boy from the neighboring farm.
I really wasn’t aware of any sexuality, other than between man and wife. I didn’t really have any sexual urges, growing up, either. My sisters just said that they would come, one day, and my mother reminded me that the marriage bed would be a sacred place to find those desires, and that I was probably just a late bloomer. And I did find a special kind of intimacy and connection with my husband, and being a dutiful wife brought me immense satisfaction!
Not being the eldest, my husband and I didn’t inherit either of our family farms. He and I moved into the neighboring town, and we each took up jobs: he became a master carpenter, and I worked part time at the local store. I started to meet new people from outside my community, and I really started to bond with a lot of the women I’d meet.
Some were very definitely lesbians, who looked and dressed like men, and others were just wild women who slept around with anyone (or had such a reputation). But they were really nice to me, and I’d find myself with butterflies in my belly, daydreaming about them long after I’d rang up the sale. There wasn’t anyone I could ask about my feelings, but the older women would giggle in the back room about something called phone sex.
I snuck in a quick call, one afternoon, thinking it would just be an advice line. I entered that I was curious about women, and I got connected to a local woman from the next town over, who had a sexy voice and a real desire to introduce this “virgin” to the art of making love with a woman. I was fascinated, and I started having yearnings deep down within me! I felt like I had finally blossomed!
Keep in mind, when I married my husband, I also made a vow to my church and community. I’d never stray! But sometimes, when I need to feel fully blossomed and that special feeling of intimacy and understanding which only a woman can give to me, I still sneak in a few phone calls during my afternoon free time! I’ve come to the conclusion that, even though it’s a part of the modern world, phone sex is something that the Lord gave to me!!
